Solitude....

There are times in your life when you would be sleepy at 11:59 PM,yet a thousand thoughts will cloud your brain and force you to rethink your life in radical terms.
These are the moments you wish you could literally thrash,scream,punch those insignificant people who've held up your life and have made it miserably miserably. Those people from whom you expect a lot,have had a thousand dreams but now you watch them drift apart..Slowly..
And you realise that it had happened earlier also..And will happen again..
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The silence of the night, pierced by the occasional chirping of birds,the devotional kirtan somewhere and the lone motorist on the ever lonely roads..And there you'll lie,thinking;turning and tossing in your bed about what could've been and what had turned out actually..You curse your luck,you curse the person..But,deep down you realise that nothing's gonna probably change..You'll behave foolishly once again,and once again you'll have this "slipping away" feeling..And this cycle would repeat itself..You'll be bruised,scathed, scarred; yet you'll yearn..
And in the end,it'll just be a lonely night..With just you and the calm,cold night spreading her arms around you and giving the best embrace.
It'll be just you and your solitude.

Couldn't Be..

How fine it would have been..
If we had entangled?
But it just couldn't be..
We were like two different strands of yarn..
It just couldn't be..

How fine it would have been..
If I endured a bit less pain?
But it couldn't be..
I fell on you and shattered myself..
It just couldn't be..

How fine it would have been.
If the days were a little less bleak?
But it couldn't be..
Autumnal days,Beaked out moments..
It just couldn't be..

Moments

The seasons have changed,
The time has changed,
You're no more into me.
Still..
The pain
Of realisation
Gnaws me,from within

I know you're far,
Too far,
Far beyond my reach.
Still..
For once
I would want to
Relive those moments again..

I'm a prisoner of the past.
You,a free bird..
And the twain shall never meet..
As the classics said.
-A.D.